3.20.2013

softly, the way a storm rolls in.

as the storm rolls in.
i. it's only right for you to know that when they say, "it's not you, it's me," they're lying. they say it's something they did, something they can't control, and that it's better off this way. you know they're trying to be nice but that sinking feeling presents itself anyway. or rather, it lurches and tugs, like a child who wants you to see what they can do. but you smile. take it graciously like you've seen others do in films, tell them it was good while it lasted, and thank them for telling the truth.

ii. but you see them sigh (relieved, like the still after a harsh wind), a rush of colour flooding back into their face. they smile widely. the same smile you fell for. (and yet.) you begin to wonder.

iii. your heart staggers across the sidewalk, stumbles into the street, screeches its way to shelter. (but shelter is not home.) you have been severed from your life source, thrown out into the world with no pretense or plan. but you still don't realise they lied to you.

iv. so when he turned away from the fire and saw through what was left of my soul, i didn't know how to respond. and when his eyes caught mine (like a frantic game of chase), i wondered if he found them indifferent like everyone else did. 

v. and when you said (softly, the way a storm rolls in) "you're a good friend, jocelyn," i prepared for the worst.

vi. "but," i croaked, unable to manage a voice.

vii. "there is no but. you are only good."

knowing that brian went out of his way to tell me i am a good friend makes me feel like i'm doing something right. 
small mementos why tuesdays are my favourite.
-kiss kiss kiss, 24601-
{pea ess: yes, i took that photo. it's from brieanna's shoot, that's coming up on the blog soon!}

22 comments :

  1. ONE - MY MY, OH GORGEOUSNESS IS THAT SHOT.
    TWO - FEELS FEELS FEELS.

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  2. This is fantastic Jocee! Gah,I love how you write. Teach me your ways! Beautiful shot, too!

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  3. HER HAIR. HER EYES. THE GRAIN. THE ROSE. *can't even*

    asdfghjkl;

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  4. asdfghjkl! THE FEELS. okay, this is perfect!

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  5. 24601

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    OH MY MY MY DID YOU SEE LES MIS OH MY WORD IT WAS SO GOOD WASN'T IT?!?

    also, this is really brilliant.

    xx

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  6. Asdfghjkl. That is all.
    Ps. Can I be her, or you, either one?

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  7. everything, everything in this post is beautiful! how do you do it, jocelyn??? you are genius!

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  8. You writing is perfecto. and your pictures? they just get better. keep 'em comin.

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  9. UGH SO MANY FEELS. Y U DO THIS TO ME?!

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  10. Very intriguing. The way you're able to spin your daily life into poetic posts is really nothing short of a gift. And if you took that photo, mad props!!

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    1. thank you so much! and yes, i did take that photo. it's of brieanna, whose shoot i'll be posting soon! :)

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    2. OH MY GOSH, YOU TOOK THAT PHOTO????????? I thought it was something off Pinterest or something...
      you are unreal girl.

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  11. UGH SO MANY FEELS. Y U DO THIS TO ME?!?

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  12. That picture is stunning. Seriously, so ridiculously beautiful. 24601. Yesss.

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  13. so i know this post was beautiful and full of feels and all that, but i have to admit the first time i read it, the only thing i noticed was that you signed with 24601. and i immediately erupted with, "who am i?? two-four-six-oh-OONNNNNNEEEEEEEEE!!!" yup. bona fide les mis geek right here.

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  14. Beautiful, Jocee. And the picture is wonderful :)
    Kimmy x

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  15. 1. That picture! Oh my goodnesss its stunning!!!
    2. This is lovely, lovely words. so many feels. love. love. love. love. love.

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  16. Your eloquence and beauty... Goodness. You have such a way with words my dear. <3

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  17. I love this one so much. Somehow you put emotions to words perfectly every time.

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  18. Have you recorded any of your pieces? I heard you at the Austin Symphony Young Composers Concert and would like to purchase a CD if you have published one.

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    1. hey, barbara!
      first, thanks SO much for attending the concert!
      unfortunately, right now, there aren't any CDs for sale because both the symphony and i have them copyrighted. so they aren't for public distribution at the moment. but if anything changes, i will let you know! :)

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