3.14.2013

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my eyes aren't anything particularly special. it's not the first thing people notice about me, and if they do notice, they get the colour wrong (black, instead of brown). i've never liked them very much, because i thought i didn't have a reason to. and yet. 

someone noticed it while he and i were swinging on the bench by the fire. maybe it was him, maybe it wasn't. but they told me that my eyes looked nice and that they were sorry they hadn't noticed it before. they said they looked like hazelnut, like chocolate mixed with cream, like the coffee they were trying to cut down on. and they wished they had eyes like mine even though theirs were blue/green/gray and i've always wanted to know what it'd be like to have eyes of that colour. 

my eyes aren't anything majorly spectacular, and yet, since then i haven't been able to shake the smile that arises when the sun tells me not to give its hiding spot away to the house across the street. i guess what i'm trying to say is, i won't always love every aspect of myself all at once. but i think i love this part.

-kiss kiss kiss, be my thrill-

44 comments :

  1. #onlyblackgirlintheblogworld #holla #represent #pretty

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    1. BAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. this made my day. :D

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    2. hahahaha, epic. ;) love this. ;D

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    3. i think i may have just died a bit.

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    4. not the only one (waves) but I almost FELL OVER BECAUSE PERFECT ANON IS PERFECT AHAHAHAHAHA

      (seriously, Jocee--why can't all anons on your blog be like this? XD)

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  2. Good grief you're a pretty person. I just want to come see you and shoot your face. Okay? Okay. (Also, wow does that sound violent.)

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  3. love this, Jocee. :) i always wished i had bright blue eyes, or something stunning, instead of brown. but it's part of being content with who God made us, i guess. and to have someone (someone special!) say they love your eyes would make them more special. ;)

    beautiful pictures, darling!
    x, mikailah
    www.maid4him.blogspot.com

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  4. GURL BE FAR TOO PRETTY. told you your eyes sparkle. this be gorgeous, doll. :)

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  5. BROWN EYED TWINSIES. YOU SO PURTAY.

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  6. Darling girl, you have the puurrrtiest eyes in the world! The depth of emotion behind them is astounding. I'm still learning to love mine, which are too dark brown for me to honestly enjoy.

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  7. Just wondering...doesn't this seem a tad self-centered?

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    1. it wasn't intended to be, no. it's just a small piece on self-discovery. jessica (the alcove) and i were talking about our self-worth a few days ago, and we concluded that ultimately, God made us who we are for a reason. He made us look the way we look for a reason, and He wants us to be happy about it. there's nothing wrong with loving yourself, physically (to an extent), mentally, emotionally, etc, and this is a step towards that for me. sometimes, when we don't feel the best about ourself, it's perfectly okay to get a little reminder from someone that says 'you're beautiful.' so that's what i was trying to convey. :)

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    2. Gotcha - you're really pretty, btw. It just saddens me to see people going down the "I'm just being good to myself"-but-really-getting-a-big-head road. I'm glad you're not like that. :)

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  8. your stunning, jocee! i do think your eyes are spectacular :)

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  9. SELF CONCEITED?! LOLOLOLOLOL.

    ...moving on.

    I saw this title and I squealed becaUSE HAVE YOU READ 'THE HISTORY OF LOVE'?!

    you're eyes are gorgeous.

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    1. YES I AM READING IT RIGHT NOW AND I WILL NEVER PASS BY 'AND YET' THE SAME WAY I DID BEFORE AGAIN :D

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  10. look at you being all gorgeous and junk. :)

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  11. are you kidding? please tell me your kidding! your eyes are GORGEOUS! i wish i had your eyes... my eyes are a creepy shade of green, brown, and ick combined.

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  12. i love this. it really is true how much of a difference someone's comment can change how we see things. i always love the way you describe the definition of things...color, feelings etc. I love brown eyes...they have this kind of depth and beauty that, although not noticed right away, is really special and so beautiful (this is coming from a blue-eyed girl).

    -Carli

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  13. You are freakin' gorgeous Jocee. Not to mention you write like a beast. The way your write..sheesh. Sends chills up my spine every time.

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  14. YOUR EYES. They're so unique and so beautiful. And I love the dynamic of these pictures. Can I please just have your face.

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  15. I can totally relate to this, Jocee- my eyes are your color and not many people notice them at first. But I have learned to like them lots. And I just really really really love this post.
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  16. you are so gorgeous. i've always admired dark eyes...they seem to be deep, like they're full of secrets.
    also, self centered?? psh no, just no.

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  17. I have grey eyes, and until I read one of the Anne Shirley books in which Anne expressed her love for grey eyes, and the misty mysteriousness of them I never liked them. They felt bland and empty to me. I don't have those blond girl sparkling blue eyes that all my sisters own. I just have these empty grey eyes that remind Anne Shirley of sea fog.

    I love your eyes, Jocee, they are so dark and chocolatey, and beautiful. I agree with Oriana, dark eyes seem so full of secrets, and grey eyes seem so frank and open.

    But, to keep from sounding like a total eye hater on myself, my grey eyes that are far too open, secretless, and are learning to sparkle with the azure blue of my family, they are growing on me. slowly.

    Of course, Anne helped. ;D

    But, thats how it feels to have Grey eyes, to answer your ponponderance.

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  18. Your eyes are gorgeous, girl. And your eyelashes are so pretty and curly and wonderful too.

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  19. I seriously love your eyes. Gorgeous.

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  20. your eyes are amazing and that is all.

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  21. you just. you. wow. i dunno what to say. everything about you is spectacular.
    especially your personality. like, i legit envy your charm, writing skills, and sense of humor.

    :)

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  22. the first picture though. this is so special.

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  23. love this. these pictures are gorgeous.

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  24. But your eyes are awesome! :) As is this post.

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  25. How beautiful is this post and these pictures! I think when people comment on someone else's eyes that is when they are really seeing the person. Just perfect!
    xo TJ

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  26. this was so beautiful, and so are you.
    i had to smile because many people mistake my brown eyes for black as well.

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  27. these pictures are honestly perfect. and so are your eyes. wonderful post :)

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  28. personally, i despise lame comments. like, if you're going to say something, say it well, so it will be at least interesting to read. i guess that has held me back from commenting on this blog of yours. by the way, your comments on other peoples blogs always, always make me smile. so, a long time ago, when i had never heard of you, or knew anything about who you were, i came across your blog and thought that you were slightly...um, crazy, shall i say? ;) well. after coming back here again and again (because goodness sakes, that crazy girl had some good things to say) i just want to tell you about how now i know for sure you're crazy and you're even more wonderful then crazy. and sweet. and i love reading everything you post and your words are full of beautiful :)

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    1. oh, grace, darling, i am beyond certifiable.
      srsly i just woke up (latest in a REALLY long time! 10:16am is now the record to beat) and to see this personal, heartfelt comment in my moderation board-type-thingy really makes me feel soo loved. technically i'm not supposed to use that word anymore because of my whole post on it, but that's how i feel. i admire you for taking a stand on the lame comments (read: yes yes yes. love this. the end.) and creating ones that not only mean something to me, but also something to you. so THANK you for commenting for real and thank you for reading for real. it really blesses me bunches.
      so yes. yay. you and i should be friends. :) <3

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  29. brown eyes ftw. :) you're beautiful, and so is your writing.

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  30. Goodness, I can't believe no one's noticed your eyes at first before...they're stunning!

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  31. yes yes yes. love this. the end. no, just kidding. i do love this, though. i have super dark brown eyes and super dark brown hair too, and i've always struggled with how i look, so what you said in this post was really nice to hear. i can't tell you how much your blog (and you as a person) has blessed and encouraged me. most of the time, all my brain can seem to say when i read your posts is "yes yes yes. LOVE this" so i don't comment too much, but when people are as freaking amazing as you are, i think they need to be told. so hey, jocee, you are freaking amazing. hope you have a great day. :)

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    1. after reading this comment i have a massive urge to like hug you (and i don't hug many people because... well because reasons so you're pretty special but you were already special so it's not like you don't know that) and take you for coffee (or cocoa) (or tea) and cupcakes and photoshoots and things like that because goodness i just don't know what to say. this blesses me so much. so so so so so much. i can't even begin to tell you how flustered i am, or how red my cheeks are from blushing. i just, you know, this is so encouraging. thank you for this. you are SUCH a blessing. used by God. :) <3

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sometimes i do not understand why you guys like me so much, but the fact that you do (and that you keep coming around) makes me happier than you can even imagine.

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