darling i haven't forgotten.

i remember us when we 

were young. 

we'd talk about ducks and

tornadoes and

we wouldn't know better. 

we wouldn't care. 

i don't think i had a better friend

than you at the time. 

that time when the void didn't

exist. 

and then we got older.

i started to love you,

and we drifted

apart,

like clouds in an 

open sky.

and then the 

void came. 

i fell into the 

labyrinth of platonic 

handshakes and desperate looks from

your friends.

and you just let me 

stay there.

it's been a 

month. 

a month since i wished

you would hug me. 

the gap between our friendship is

widening, i can't see 

hope for us anymore. 

the thing is, darling

i haven't forgotten. 

i just don't know if 

you 

remember.

happy sixteenth birthday, eli. i'm still waiting for that hug.
{pea ess: the eli saga, if you want to know all of it. here and here.}

{pea pea ess: the poem that inspired me to do this, by carlotta. swear, it'll make you cry. it's the poem in the photo, i wrote it down so i'd always remember, too.}